Where am i heading to?

Life has been going to fastest than expected, and it's almost an year into Google. There had been few things in my mind when i joined Google, but i have wiped them off completely after joining the company. And now if ask my self had i taken right choice of moving into Google instead of apping for higher studies, i have no answer. But i can say i have learnt lot of things in here, but still not able to be what i want, I still lack the courage to stand up say what i think.

Still i am not able to decide on my higher studies, and i am running very short on making this decision as I have to prepare for GRE, and give it incase the answer is 'yes'. Few things that helped me come to this stage, are again needed now for making my next crucial decision of my life. Not being over confident, having belief on my thoughts, dedication of what i am doing and etc. May this post has more of unprocessed thoughts, i am stoping it for now.